JUST WAIT

All my gardening books said it was fine to plant spring peas in February. In fact, most of them said you need to. Seeing as I am beyond ready for summer and all the fresh vegetables it will bring, the chance to get something in the ground so early excited me. 

Peas are frost tolerant. The back of most pea seed packets say that you can plant them as soon as the soil is workable. By early February we hadn’t seen a lick of snow, so I went for it. 

Not inside, in the safety of starter pots, nestled under a grow light but out in the raised garden beds. 

The stuff I had started inside had all sprouted rather quickly. I ridiculously thought the peas would be the same. 

Every few days, after coming home from the store, I’d walk across the damp grass and peer down into the dirt, sure I’d see the signs of a pea shoot. 

After all, I had planted 50 seeds. Three different varieties. 

Surely, at least one would be vigorous and reach for the  grey northwest sky. 

A week went by.

Two. 

Three.

I started to get worried. 

Four.

I decided it was probably a loss and I’d have to replant them all.

Erik told me to wait. I thought he was a little crazy. The seed producers said germination should be in 7-21 days or thereabouts. We were well past that. 

I went over all the things I could have done wrong.

I’d planted before a big rain thinking that would help the seeds settle in. Maybe it had been too wet and they had rotted. I’d added some poultry manure to the beds. Maybe, somehow, I’d overfertilized and it had hampered germination. What would that mean for the rest of my season, I wondered. Or the compost I’d added. It had looked different this year. Maybe the peas didn’t like it. 

Surely there was a reason they hadn’t come up by the time they should have. And likley it was my fault. 

Right? 

RIGHT!

So of course, I made plans to re-seed the peas. 

Erik told me to wait. 

“Just give it some time,” he said. 

At almost 5 or more weeks past sowing, I figured these suckers were never coming up. A lost cause. What good would waiting do?  

I thought about getting my trowel and digging around to see if there were any signs of life. 

Anything to keep things on track! 

But we were heading out a town for a few days, so Erik encouraged me to leave them be until we got back. If they hadn’t sprouted by then, I could reseed. 

I wish I could say that I saw the wisdom in his encouragement to wait, but patience is one of the fruits of the spirit in my life that could use a gallon of fertilizer. 

I hate waiting.

I want to get things done. 

Move on.

Check it off the list. 

But I’m learning yet again (because apparently the lesson didn’t stick the first million and a half times it was presented to me), that there are a lot of things in life you just have to wait for.

You can’t force them, and if you do, you’ll either fall flat on your face, fail miserably, or push yourself so hard you’ll end up exhausted (and maybe in a hospital bed). 

So, reluctantly (and honestly because I ran out of time before our flight), I left the old peas in the ground, without digging them up to check. 

I was sure they had all rotted and died. Dissolved and disappeared like a mirage. 

You see where this is going, don’t you? 

When we got home from our trip, it was late. It had been dark for a few hours. Plus, I was tired and not in the mood to try to find a flashlight and go out to the garden. 

The next morning, I decided to peek. I figured I could replant later that day and hopefully be ok. Maybe I’d even buy a few pea starter plants to help me catch up. 

And low and behold, tiny and tender triangles of  green, had started pushing through the dark, rich compost. 

PEAS!

Were they way later than I expected? Yes. 

Were they way later than the packet had told me they’d be? Yes. 

But they needed their own timeline – not mine. 

So much of life is like those pea seeds. 

We want things to happen faster. 

We want results on our timeline.

Why? Because we want to be in control. 

To me the peas (finally) popping up are a reminder that if I just wait, beauty will emerge. Growth will come.  

Of course, this isn’t true for every single circumstance in life. There is an element of action to our time on earth, but I think more often than not, we could stand to wait a little longer.

Next time I’m worrying about something taking too long, or rushing to get things done, I’m praying I’ll be able to take a deep breath and just wait for God to work. 

JANUARY MAGIC

I told myself I wasn’t going to do it again. I’d learned my lesson. I was going to wait for just the right timing. 

I looked at the books. 

I started making a chart. 

I had a plan. 

And then, the sun came out. 

And people on YouTube told me I could do it. They said now was the time. 

So, a few Saturdays ago, with frost making the blades of grass sparkle and crunch under my feet, I went out to the shed and pulled out my seed starter trays. 

I picked up some seed starting mix, and while Erik went to take care of some ministry stuff, I got to work planting my vegetable seeds.

In January. 

Probably way too early. 

It’s possible nothing will survive. But I can’t help it. 

I get so excited about gardening that I just can’t wait any longer. Especially on a sunny day. 

This year I am doing things a little different – hopefully that increases my odds of success. 

In addition to starting a number of plant babies inside, on a heating mat, under grow lights, I decided to try “winter sowing.” 

Apparently, when you plant in a mostly enclosed plastic container and put it in a sunny location, in effect, a miniature greenhouse is created. Because the containers are mostly sealed (They do need a little airflow, and of course, drainage holes), they stay moist and don’t need constant watering. Plus, the ebb and flow of daily temperatures is supposed to “wake up” the dormant seeds in their own timing. You leave them mostly alone, making sure they stay moisturized, until the garden soil warms up enough to transplant them.

They don’t need any hardening off because they have already been exposed to a variety of temperatures and direct sunlight. 

Sounds pretty amazing, right? 

I thought so, too. Especially the promise of getting to start this year’s garden earlier than my garden book said I could. 

Because the truth is, I’m impatient. 

Really impatient. 

And my garden is just one of the places it’s most evident. 

To hedge my bets and try to get the most out of my spring and summer garden this year, as I mentioned, I also started seeds inside. 

Nestled in my dining room, under my 20-year-old black console table, is my “incubation station.” 

I started the same seeds there that I did outside, I hope doubling my chances of success. 

And inside, in the room I walk through dozens of times each day, is where the January magic started happening. 

I planted and labeled the seeds. 

I tucked in cool weather crops like broccoli, lettuce and spinach alongside heat-loving tomato seeds. I watered everything and covered it with a plastic dome. Two days later, I decided to take the dome off to make sure the soil was still moist enough for germination to happen. 

And that’s when I saw it. 

Not one, or two, but at least half a dozen little leaves popping out of the soil and straining for the light. 

I left the dome off. 

I watered again and walked away. 

That night, more cotyledons – this time lettuce – had been born. 

For the last week, I’ve checked those seedlings and stared at the soil of the “empty” trays multiple times a day. 

I almost can’t get enough. 

It happens so fast. One morning it looks like nothing is happening, then two hours later, you see a white bent-over stem starting to stretch from the depths of the dirt. A few more hours, and yellowish leaves have emerged. The next day, the yellow has turned to green and the sprouts stand taller. They are reaching, straining, yearning for the life ahead of them. 

Magic is the best word I can think of to describe it. 

And this January, I needed that magic. Badly. Almost desperately. 

Will all these little guys survive? I don’t know. Probably not. Even if they do, I probably won’t have room for all of them. Picking who will get transplanted – who will be given the best chance of survival – is an emotional battle I’ll fight another day. 

But today, I’m just going to enjoy the magic of it. 

How out of nothing, comes something.

How in the tiniest of seeds – some as small as a grain of sand – can become something that will one day fill the entire corner of my raised bed. One day, God-willing, it will produce leaves that will fill the bottom of my salad bowl as I pile on other miracles – plants of different sizes and colors that will strengthen me, nourish me, delight me and lead me to give thanks to the Creator for His amazing bounty. 

So, yeah. I did it again. 

I planted my garden early. Probably too early.

 But even if it all dies and I have to hit up garden stores to fill my beds come April and May, I think it’s worth it. 

Because January – especially this year – needed some magic.